I almost fell off the Treadmill!

ttttttI’ve seen it happen before my eyes: Someone falling off a treadmill. Some people might consider it quite entertaining, but not so much for the person involved. It can be downright scary, painful and very humiliating. I came close…

Now I can already hear some of you commenting that it serves me right for not walking out in nature, playing a decent sport, or doing a step class. However, in my defense, since I’ve become a “treadmill girl” I have actually been much more consistent at exercise. I found that I can endure a lot of pain (muscle pain that is) if I am distracted. So I’ve made this my time to read some fun stuff. No educational or heavy stuff, but rather magazines and light reading. It keeps my mind busy and off the pain and more importantly off the self pity that usually accompanies it:)

Now I know walking on a treadmill at 6am in the morning sounds downright boring and dreadful, but let me tell you, the “treadmill community” has it perks. Some people are quite entertaining. There’s this one guy that has to be a Christian, because he goes into his own world at the gym. I kid thee not, eyes closed and pretty demonstrative with arms waving and everything.

Now to get back to me and the treadmill. I have seen people lose their footing due to ipods, water bottles and towels. If you drop one of those you hardly have time to pull the cord and make the thing stop. Once that object hits the belt and comes under your feet, you’re going down baby! The best part is the people’s reactions afterward. I’m sure in some cases it can be serious, but fortunately I’ve never witnessed a 911 situation. Most of the people I saw would immediately jump back up and carry on running like nothing ever happened! What’s that all about? A few others would grab their stuff, head for the closest exit and not show up for a few days.  As for the spectators, we would snicker in silence but avoid eye contact with the victim at all cost.

So after witnessing all this I was not going to be caught off guard. I have a plan to always place my stuff where they can not fall down, and I don’t listen to an ipod (due to sensitive ears not age okay). One thing I didn’t consider, and I’m here to warn you all about; the little pieces of paper they stuff magazines with to encourage you to buy a subscription. One of those came tumbling out of my brand new magazine, and floated in midair for a minute while my heart skipped a beat, and then it landed, smack in the middle of my “runway” . I stumbled, I frantically grabbed the handle bars, lifting myself up to hang in the air like a regular acrobat, and then I realized that I had no free hand to pull the “stop-cord”. Panic made me twist my body in a way that I will never be able to copy and I got a hold of that little dangling rope with my one knee. The treadmill came to a halt not a second too soon, because my shaky legs was already back on the belt and moving backwards FAST.

Of course I wanted to be the one who laughed at myself and broke the awkwardness. But I just grabbed my things and walked as fast and dignified as I possible toward the exit. No one laughed, and no one made eye contact, but I’m sure I saw a few smiles out of the corner of my eye.

I’m glad to report that I only went in hiding for three days, and I now scan a magazine from cover to back before it becomes my exercise buddy.

On a more serious note:
God has an exercise for you. Find it girl! If you can exercise consistently many of the things surrounding your food addiction will become easier and start falling into place. Also, it might be a good way to incorporate worship and prayer into your life. I have had some good prayer sessions on the treadmill, or just walking outside. See it as an hour that you give to yourself every day, and make it count. Prayer is one of those things that we can do anywhere, and what better time than when you’re exercising. I need to sometimes do some warfare prayer to not quit exercising, and it has never failed to work!

Remember: The enemy wants to keep us from the things that can bring freedom to our lives. PRAYER and EXERCISE  are two of those things. Why not give him a double whammy by combining these two.

Too difficult? Ask God to help you do it. I still daily ask Him to help me resist all of the negative thoughts in my mind when it’s time to exercise.

Something interesting: Just this week I was reading a book about a 50 year old women who is a famous runner, and she says that it’s a well known fact in the world of running that the most difficult part of running is to get your shoes on and get out the door. So even the super fit people have to knock down the resistance every day. This made me feel a little better, but tomorrow morning I know I will have to cry out to God again to help me get out of bed and lace up those running shoes so that my day can be balanced and I can stay FREE!


Let me know if you have a testimony on exercise and please click here to read a testimony  by a friend from Kazakhstan

A Letter to my Little Girl

A friend, Sandy,  had a great idea for a bunch of us “bloggers” to write about proper body image and Godly motivation for fitness. Thanks Sandy!
She was going to write a letter to her daughter and I so wanted to do the same for Christie. Maybe you want to join in and write your own post or letter to your daughter or grand daughter.

Please go check out this amazing video about this topic on Sarah’s blog at All pain-No gain. It had me in tears!


My sweet little Christie girl

You’re only three years old but I so want to write you this letter in the hope that you will one day read it.

Being a Mom to you and your three amazing brothers is truly the greatest joy in all my life!

I can still not believe that I now also have a little girl! I so want to protect you from everything. When I see you sleep with your little hand tucked under a rosy cheek and your brown curls spread all over your pink Dora pillow, I ache with love for you.

I know that I won’t be able to protect you from all the lies and bad things in this world, but I hope to teach you a few truths along the way that will help.

There is one thing I’ve told your brothers countless times, and I hope to tell you many times too through out your life: Nothing in life compares with loving God.
Seriously, whether things are going great in your life or you are going through a really difficult season, loving God is all that truly matters and truly lasts!

My sweet baby girl, as a woman you have many challenges and joys ahead of you:IMGP0760_141x188

One day you might find yourself wondering why you have brown hair, green eyes and a certain body shape. One day you might look around you and realize that you are different from others. Right now you don’t even notice it, but one day you might recognize different skin color, body shapes, hair texture, and find “flaws” in yourself as you start to compare yourself with those around you.

When that day comes I want you to know that you are standing before a very important choice: Will you believe God’s truth about you or will you settle for the enemy’s lies?

I am begging you, my sweet darling girl, to believe the truth!


There will never be anyone like you, EVER AGAIN, you are amazing and totally unique in every way!

You were given your set of features; hair color, body shape, eye color and facial features BY GOD, FOR A SPECIFIC  REASON AND PURPOSE!

Your bone structure and genetic makeup will determine your perfect weight, and being skinny has NOTHING TO DO WITH BEING BEAUTIFUL AND HEALTHY!

Obsessing about weight can make you weigh less or more than what God has intended for you, and it will steal your peace. But staying close to Him,  surrendering your way of eating to Him, and taking good care of your body will bring joy and peace to your life.

God made you to move girl! So find active things that you love and that you truly enjoy. Be yourself!

Take good care of your body, you will only get one in this lifetime. Feed it healthy food : Enjoy all the great flavors and colors of food that God created. Drink lots of water, rest enough, and LAUGH OUT LOUD AT LEAST ONCE A DAY!

Don’t waste time to try and please other people. There is one smile over your life that is truly important: The smile of God

Most of all: Know that God can truly satisfy you in a way that no relationship, no meal, no object and no human love ever can. So CHASE HARD AFTER GOD ALL THE DAYS OF YOUR LIFE!!

I pray that you will learn the truth about yourself early in your precious life, much earlier than your Mom did:)


IMGP0784_225x300In the end we don’t have to do one thing to make Him love us more, His love for you, my little princess is EVERLASTING and CAN NEVER FAIL.

You are His princess, perfect, created exactly in the way you should be…

I have no words to even begin to tell you how much I love you… SO MUCH!

Your Mamma

Things that Keep coming out of the closet…

So I’m still busy with the never ending potty training… How did I do it with the other three? I know for sure they were not in diapers at age 3 anymore, and I’m sure it was much easier…or was I just younger…can’t remember…

Well today I did something AGAIN, that I always promise myself I will NEVER do: I used guilt and shame to hurry along the process. I know, shame on me! All the books on children (especially potty training) warns against the use of guilt and shame as a way to motivate, simply because it doesn’t work, in fact it does the opposite…

Now you would think that after all these years and four kids later I would be the wiser, but no, it sort of just “spills out of me” when I reach a certain place. This place usually consist of a well blended mix of exhaustion, frustration, irritation and haywire hormones, add a pinch of prayerlesness and you have my personal recipe for disaster.

So afterward I did what I had to do:  I confessed, made time to rest, made time to pray and tried again.

However, it always bothers me that these things keep coming out of the closet. Guilt and shame keeps popping up, not so much towards my kids as toward myself. I know it’s a useless feeling, and nothing good comes of it, but before I know it, I feel guilty about something I didn’t do or shameful about something I did. Like with my kids, it doesn’t motivate me either, it does the opposite, it makes me turn to food…

The same is true for unforgiveness and temptation actually. Just last week a friend shared with me how she keeps forgiving, like one would keeps resisting temptation, every time the enemy brings up old grudges. This is so true for all of us. It only takes a certain smell, a certain picture or a old song to put me right back into a past place of pain. If I nurture this for a mere second, I can start digging up old ruins, dwell on past offenses or hurts and before you know it: Things I forgave and put behind me, bugs me again!

So I wrote this post, to remind you, and definitely remind myself that the enemy wants to hand us a few “gifts” every day. He stands ready, waiting for a loophole in our armor so he can dish out shame, guilt, unforgivenss, offense and temptation.

We will be wise to keep our armor on, stay close to our Mighty God, and be aware of the enemy’s tactics.

However, if you do have a day where all the odds are stacked against you, as happens quite often in the life of busy women and moms, then remember what my friend pointed out: We can simply choose to forgive that person AGAIN, resist that temptation AGAIN,  and shake off that guilt and shame AGAIN.

And always remember…Today, freedom awaits you AGAIN!

Have a wonderful guilt-and-shame-free week dear sister

Love, Heleen