Time to Get Angry!

Maybe it’s time to get angry. I felt my blood pressure rise and a “holy anger” came over me while reading a few emails of ladies these past weeks. These were emails of pain, bondage, and hopelessness and while my heart was bleeding for each one of these precious women, I was also getting so mad at the enemy.

I’m angry because of a vicious lie Satan has been using for ages to keep us in bondage. It’s the lie of “you can’t possibly come to God in this disgusting state that you are in”

Do you realize how many women are kept in bondage daily because they believe:
“I can only go back to church once I’ve lost some weight”
“I will join that women’s Bible study once I’ve stopped gambling”
“I will talk to a pastor after I’ve ended this relationship”
“I can not pray while I still have these evil thoughts”
“I can not read my Bible while I still yell at my kids”


We don’t have the power to save or change ourselves.  So if the enemy can just get us to believe the lie that we have to fix ourselves before coming to God we are trapped!

I am adding this part about the prodigal son that I’ve posted before because it is so important to hear again.

God is calling you, just as you are. You might be dealing with incredible pain, shame, or anxiety at this very moment. You might have just eaten so much food that you are in physical pain. Maybe you just purged and you feel shame hanging like a cloak around your shoulders. Maybe you are past all these feelings and you just feel a great numbness inside of you…

Seriously, God is waiting for you! He saw everything you did and He is still waiting and calling…

The voices of condemnation, guilt and shame that you hear are not of God but of the enemy who wants to destroy you (John 10:10)

I would like to remind you today of our Father’s heart. The parable in Luke 15 about the prodigal son gives us a peek into the heart of our heavenly father. He is looking for you, waiting for you to return to Him. He doesn’t insist that you first clean up your act or that you get rid of your filth before you come to Him. On the contrary, when He sees you taking the first few steps, He will run to you with open arms, welcoming you and showering you with love.

Please don’t try to first get “better” before you come to God. It’s the enemy’s age old trick to keep us in bondage.

It is only in God’s presence that we are cleaned and changed. You can not change yourself, but He has all the power to heal your broken heart and help you change the habits and addictions you’ve picked up to numb the pain. Better yet… He wants to heal the pain you are trying to numb…

Listen to what the Amplified Bible says about the father of the prodigal son:
“So he got up and came to his [own] father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was moved with pity and tenderness [for him]; and he ran and embraced him and kissed him [fervently]” (Luke 15:20)(emphasis mine)

Do you see that the father was moved with pity and tenderness! Our heavenly Father has that same pity and tenderness towards us every time we come to Him, even in our filthy state. This might not be the first time you come to Him, but PLEASE don’t stop coming.

I found freedom from bulimia when I started crying out to God EVERY TIME I was binging or purging. I would cry and tell Him how bad I felt about myself, how ashamed I was, and how I needed Him to help me. He heard, He took pity on me, and drew me close to his heart with tenderness. You are his child too, He has no favorites, He wants to do the same for you!

Just run to Him my dear friend, repent, and accept His forgiveness. Jesus came so you can be free (Isaiah 61)

Your sister in Christ

4 thoughts on “Time to Get Angry!”

  1. This is really good, Heleen and goes right along with my current Breaking Free bible study. Beth gets more real with us in this updated version and speaks specifically on crying out to God in the very moment of our temptation. Quoting from the study: God has reserved momentous victories and great rewards for us. But we’ll never make it to our milestones (in our case, overcoming eating disorders) if we can’t make it through our moments (of temptation). We must learn to pray in the moment of temptation! What we don’t openly talk to Him about stays in defeat. For other ladies reading this, if you don’t know what to pray just cry out, “Jesus, deliver me in Your strong and mighty name!” And pray it in the moment you are the most tempted! Psalm 145:18 says “The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth.” The devil wants us to believe we will never overcome our struggle with food but we must never forget that he is a liar!

  2. Hi
    Isn’t God wonderful. I am doing that same study with Beth Moore “Breaking Free” it is amazing.

  3. I read this article yesterday. It added to your videos and other teachings by emphasizing the amount of warfare we are truly in and how we need to always be on guard. Last week, I read your E-book and purchased a membership for your 12 week program. Each video and writing of yours that I watch or read is increasing my knowledge of how to let God take over and how to recognize when Satan is attacking.

    I’ve been a Christian for 33 years (I’m 37), grew up in a Christian home (my dad’s a pastor), and yet, I never heard or read such practical and spirit-filled guidance as to how to completely surrender to God. Thank you for your transparency in your triumphs and struggles. I can identify with you in so many ways!!

    This morning, I read the first day of your 40 day journal. What struck me the most was to not trust any of my thoughts and that I must constantly be on guard against the work of the enemy. What power that gives a Christian when they learn to check every thought to see if it’s in line with God’s teaching (I know – it’s only been about 8 hours since I’ve been watching every thought – but it’s been wonderful and peaceful! :-)).

    This morning, after I read the first day of your journal, and was driving to work, I was talking with God. I was having a wonderful time praising him and thanking him for everything He has done in my life over the past two weeks as I have come to terms with my eating disorder. That was when guilt descended upon me with a vengeance. I began thinking, that with all the advantages that I have had in life (godly parents, good education, great husband, healthy kids, enjoyable career), I have wasted 33 years of my life not being effective as a Christian and allowing God to fill me with His power. I started to feel like I didn’t deserve any of this new insight into the hold food has on me, since I’ve already wasted so much of my life. I had put a CD in when I started on my way to work that I have not listened to for many years. Immediately after I thought these things, some bible verses read by Wayne Hilliard of the music group, Higher Ground, began to play. The verses are found in Haggai 2:7-9: Thus saith the Lord, I will fill this house with glory, for the glory of the latter house will be greater than the former, and in this place I will give peace. I understand that these verses are talking about when Jesus comes back; but, I felt that God was telling me that they were for me right now and the “house” is my body. Then, the beautiful lyrics to their song “When the Glory of the Lord Comes to Reign” began:

    When glory comes to reign
    With manifested change
    It will grip the hearts of everyone below

    In the twinkling of an eye
    We will see an open sky
    When the glory of the Lord comes to reign

    When the glory of the Lord comes to reign
    Touched by heaven’s power
    Restored to live again

    Every eye that looks upon Him will be changed
    All is blessed by His appearing
    Shining forth with heaven’s healing
    When the glory of the Lord comes to reign

    It was such a neat experience to feel God’s love and interest in my healing from being controlled by food! Thank you, Heleen, for your ministry. Your focus on spiritual warfare, total surrender to God, and your transparency are truly transforming my life!

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